facade

I told my ex-manager: "Never give power to a mad man who wants to rule the world."

As many of you would have known, it's been a rough week; no doubt about it. But someone once told me in any short period of time, a person could not have left you with a profound effect. And she's right.

I can see clearly now amidst the facades. And my only hope is that you can see it too.

You see; I've shared nothing but trust, respect and friendship. And I've been fed with layers and layers of distorted truth.

And I'm no longer angry.

Instead, sadness looms over. But it's not for me.

untitled

Extricate.

Move.

I know I can.

fate

I was telling Eric the other day, that with every step you take, you'd never know what happens next. One cannot prepare themselves with future situations that will befall on you and one cannot pre-engineer the steps you want to take which will change the magnitude of the situation that is going to happen to you.

So, it happened; what next? I cannot change the course of fate. I cannot go back and rewind my steps; one by one. I asked myself, if I had been late for a few more minutes or if I had just spend a little more time in the dressing room or not have gone into the changing room, would I had prevented it?

If I had stayed where I've always been these few years, would I have avoided this mess?

The cosmic might have ways to tell you but...

I took a step and I... I'm gonna keep it together.

I've been doing quite a good job at it too.

[music for the soul: appalachian springs - the verve]

slumber

I crawled into bed close to three, hoping I'd sleep through and not wake up but I was awoken at 9ish and I couldn't fall back. It's one of those days where you don't want to wake up. Not remember. Not try to want to put the puzzles together. But the mind never sleeps you see. How cruel.

most importantly

conscience.

would you be able to live with yourself after what you did?

it's funny because you remind me of another person i've told you about before.

bright idea

What if, I am just crazy about the idea of it, but afraid of the steps leading to it? Maybe I should stop thinking about it. I wonder how I came this far. Do we have to play our responsibilities now? Who am I kidding? Right, myself.

i got my head checked by a jumbo jet

Some people need to learn that the world doesn't always revolve around them, and that they should get their ginormous head checked, especially when it comes to sweating the small stuff and the small stuff happens to be me.

Hibby jibby

"We need to find Frankie soon. I need to feel pain."

"Tattooing is not pain."

"Yeah, well, it is to me!" (I have zero tolerance for pain, you see).

"Megan Fox just gave me an inspiration to tattoo Jeff Buckley's lyrics on the side of my body."

Just after I said that, her body went into a hibby jibby and she walked away.

Oops, I did it again

Hello, who are you looking for? Let your imagination wander.

And if it takes shit to make bliss, then I feel pretty blissfully.

If you're looking for something, you won't find it here. They've been nipped, tucked and kept away safely.


[music for the soul: the view - modest mouse]